The Quest (17th Sunday A)

Three years ago I started to write a blog sharing my reflections on the Sunday liturgical readings.  I entitled it Pearl of Great Price in direct reference to today’s gospel reading (Mt. 13: 44-46). Needless to say, the parable of the pearl of great price is significant to me.  Hence, I would like to share what it is to me hoping others would also find spiritual inspiration from it.

“Again, the Kingdom of heaven is like a merchant searching for fine pearls. When he finds a pearl of great price, he goes and sells all that he has and buys it” (vv. 45-46).

Life is a search.  Always we search for the good like the merchant searching for fine pearls.  Oftentimes we have the feeling that the search is endless.  Our hearts are never satisfied by what we find.  One day we feel like we’re happy with what we have; only to find out another day that we’re losing interest in it and we’re eyeing another object of our excitement.

 I finally bought a digital camera after a long and arduous process of canvassing making sure I got what I wanted.  I started taking pictures which brought me as far as China! But after a while, I felt like I needed something more powerful to allow me to take more pictures as candid

 as possible without the subject noticing it.  To cut the long story short, I got a camera with 12X optical-zoom specification which allowed me to shoot from afar.  What I didn’t understand was, when I already had it and even as I brought it with me anywhere, I lost interest in taking pictures altogether!  What I wanted to do was to pose!

There is one discovery in life though that liberates us from this pointless meandering search. It is the discovery of the pearl of God’s love. When we experience in our life the love of God, we gain a new perspective. Everything else that we deemed valuable and even essential takes a relative significance. A person who has in his or her heart the love of God no longer clings to whatever possession for he or she knows now what is truly essential. A person who discovers the pearl of God’s love sells all that he or she has in order to possess the one thing that the human heart truly longs. In the words of St. Therese of Avila: Quien a Dios tiene, nada le falta. Solo Dios basta ( He who has God does not lack anything. God is enough).

Interestingly, for the spiritual writer Henri Nouwen, the search of the human heart still does not stop at the discovery of the treasure of God’s love.  On the contrary, finding God is the beginning of a true and deeper search for God.  But this time, we know what we truly ache for—the only necessary thing.

Let me share Henri Nouwen’s words hoping they would make your hearts smile too in joyful agreement. Culled from The Only Necessary Thing:

“You can be truly happy that you have found the treasure. But you should not be so naive as to think that you already own it.... Having found the treasure puts you on a new quest for it. The spiritual life is a long and often arduous search for what you have already found. You can seek God only when you have already found God. The desire for God’s unconditional love is the fruit of having been touched but that love.”

“Because finding the treasure is only the beginning of the search, you have to be careful. If you expose the treasure to others without fully owning it, you might harm yourself and even lose the treasure. A newfound love needs to be nurtured in a quiet, intimate space. Overexposure kills it.... Finding the treasure without being ready yet to fully own it will make you restless. This is the restlessness of the search for God. “

Wow. What more can I say?

Maybe to sum up the point:  There are two levels of searching—one for the useless things and another for the only necessary thing.  Both seem to propel us to restlessness. The former elicits restlessness because of the growing emptiness that gnaws at our being. The latter makes us restless because we can’t wait to fully possess what truly matters—the pearl of God’s love.

What search makes me restless?

Let's See What We See (15th Sunday A)

“Let’s see what we see.” This is a favourite expression of Virgil, a blind character played by Val Kilmer in the 1999 movie, At First Sight.  It’s quite amusing to hear a blind man say this, knowing of course that he cannot see. I think there’s deliberate humour in it that tips off a capacity for a different kind of sight. 

Virgil, a masseur, was blind since age three. He met Amy in one his massage sessions.  Amy, a divorcee, fell for him because he helped her to truly hear and sense the world giving her new spirit and a burst of creativity.  Amy took Virgil to New York for a radical eye surgery which proved to be successful but only for a while. Virgil regained his sight but eventually lose it again due to retinal disease.

There is so much insight into the gift of seeing revealed by Virgil’s struggle to make sense of the new images that overwhelmed him after the surgery.  His eyes could see images but could not give meaning to them.  Learning how to see things meaningfully with his eyes was as painstaking as learning how to speak for the first time.  Later, after his short-lived adventure with sight, he would testify that he was better-off without his sight.  He was better off in “seeing” what was real in the world without his eyes. What a paradox!

This has reminded me of the often-quoted book of Antoine de Saint-Exupéry, The Little Prince: "What is essential is invisible to the eye. It is only through the heart that one sees rightly."  Virgil saw what was real not through his eyes but through his heart.  

Healthy eyes are not a guarantee of profound vision.  On the other hand, a blind man, with a sensitive and receptive heart, can actually say with humour and integrity, “Let’s see what we see.”

Today’s gospel (Mt. 13: 1-23) does not just tell a parable, it also tackles the Lord’s reason for using it. There’s so much to learn from the parable of the sower, but I wish to reflect on the reason given by Jesus when asked why he employs parables.  Jesus’ answer has everything to do with seeing and listening as he says:

“I use parables when I speak to them because they look but do not see, they listen but do not hear or understand... Sluggish indeed is this people’s heart... But blest are your eyes because they see and blest are your ears because they hear” (Mt. 13: 14-16)

The parables of Jesus are meant to enlighten us about intangible truths (the mysteries of the Kingdom, for instance) using metaphors culled from day-to-day life.  But it seems that the parables also become a hindrance to seeing the truth and a punishment to those with “sluggish heart” who faithlessly refuse to accept the message of God.

Jesus is challenging us to see with our heart.  Seeing with the heart allows us to grasp with clarity the essentials in life as the Lord has revealed them. 

But all too often we don’t see clearly.  Without trying to be exhaustive, I submit the following hindrances to real and meaningful seeing:

First, our habit of looking away.  Again, in At First Sight, when he was able to see, Virgil observed with astonishment that people look away.  Unbelievable! They don’t actually look with intent.  This can mean they don’t want to face realities about themselves and others squarely. Virgil concluded that the problem with sighted people is that they go on with life without seeing their real selves.  Ouch!  Do we just glance through the superficialities of life? And avoid confronting what really matters to our lives?

Second, our habit of turning a blind eye.  Most of the time, we are confronted with hard realities in life, personal, social or realities within our families, things that matter most but are calling for change.  We actually see but we just don’t care enough.  We don’t want to get involved.  So even if the truth summons for radical change, we go on life as if we have seen nothing wrong and pretend that everything’s fine.  We turn a blind eye in order to spare ourselves from the obligation to move out of our comfort zones.

Third, our “sluggish heart.”  Lazy, slow, listless, slothful, lethargic heart.  This is what Jesus sees, in today’s gospel, as the fundamental hindrance to profound seeing and understanding.  A person with a lazy heart does not see beyond what meets the eye.  He or she does not reflect.  Life for such a person is all about flashy externalities and frenzied activities devoid of depths and meaningful connections.  Such a person does not notice the “parables” embedded into the stories of his day-to-day life.  A sluggish heart refuses to see the hand of God in the events of life.

It’s so true; only through the heart that one sees clearly what is essential.  A blind man’s receptive disposition despite the total darkness that envelops his world puts into question not just our capacity to see with our eyes but essentially the openness of our hearts.

Today’s gospel again is an invitation to see clearly what truly matters in life. It invites us to shake off our superficiality, our cowardice, and our heart’s laziness and complacency.  Jesus is more like a blind man gently grabbing us by the arm and inviting us for a walk as he says with a smile, “Let’s see what we see.”